Written on Thursday, April 24, 2008 9:05 PM
i hate this feeling...i really do.
it causes flashbacks from the past..
should i keep loving?keep hoping?
cause it's starting to hurt again
it's starting to hurt real bad.
school today was horrid to say the least
when i saw my PI i just freaked..
im really sorry SANDRA
i seriously should go for anger management courses
im sorry that i freaked out and flared up over the piece of paper:/
econs test was...
NEVERMIND
i shant say anything.
i woke up this morning and i really couldnt move.
and then during training i was crying halfway cause it hurt so bad.
then i capped.
just when i was about to finish my second set
like wth.
and then this hc guy came to help me.
i somehow miraculously with the grace of God managed to do an awesome gymnastic move to get myself up the boat although my muscles were all crying at the abuse.
and when i got on,
i was spasming
then somehow, his paddle floated away
then chris came to help get it
and when he passed it to the guy
THE GUY CAPSIZED!!!!
i never felt SO GUILTY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!
so to whoever you are,
im so so sorry
i only remembered that you were wearing braces.
heh.
shaun said my strokes were good
so i was happy for the first time that day(:
but you know
EVERYTHING FELT NOT RIGHT.
you just know it.
after training, i couldnt bend my back
couldnt even carry my own bag properly
pffts.
well,
IM STILL SMILEY!
cause i got home, took a nice hot shower, listened to nice songs that bestie asked me to listen to
and am all geared up to finish up that BLASTED PI ONCE AND FOR ALL!
AND I MET CHERYL CHIAM AND UNCLE ON THE TRAIN ON SUNDAY EVENING!!!
UNCLE COULDNT BELIEVE IT WAS ME AND KEPT REPEATING MY NAME OVER AND OVER!
cause he hasnt seen me in 5 years
and ya..
CHERYL!!! I MISS YOU:/
childhood friend!
i remember all the nonsense we used to get up to,
including breaking the glass doors of the church when we were three
haha.
and the times when our mum's were so close
i miss you so much!