Written on Tuesday, January 31, 2006 1:52 PM
is this truly a season of joy?as i go for visitation after visitation,
this thought flutters through my mind.
after seeing my cousins for the first time in a year,
my heart lunches in sorrow as i leave them once again,
after only a day of fun,
i wont be seeing them until a year later.
even though this season is joyous,
does it make u forget all the problems u face?
all the stress that appear like needles poking through ur feet as u walk over them
are still there.
they are still there.
all the heartaches and everything they are still there.
so would u still consider this a season of joy?
even with all the giving and laughter,
a shadow of hurt and confusion still light up my eyes..
even as i try to laugh and be merry,
my heart tells me another..
so is this a season of joy?
to me,
maybe, maybe not..
janified 0'5
i wish you would understand that i'm still a young girl
who is foolish in matters of the heart.
if i hurt u i'm sorry...
maybe you shouldnt have told me..
for now i fancy u too..