Written on Saturday, September 03, 2005 7:58 PM

September 2

sigh..
i'm sad..
i love him so much it hurts.
when i think of him it hurts
but he is getting colder and colder to me.
he doesnt even know tt i love him..
sigh
whenever i try to talk to him online,
he just talks to me for awhile and then says tt he has to go..
i wonder if he really does,
or if he just doesnt want to talk to me.
i cant stand it anymore..
the more i
more i hurt on the inside.
tt's why, now,
I hardly talk to him online.
i get so disappointed when i sometimes break the silence and talk,
he talks for tt little while,
then says tt he has to go
i dunno wad to do anymore.
I think of him all the
when i do..
heart hurts and i wish he was mine.
but he will never be.
cause..i dun think i'm good enough for him and he may like someone else..
hope he does well for his exam today.
arghh..why am i always in such situations?
i feel so useless.
maybe i'll stay single for life.
who cares.

i better start working harder.
must do well for finals.

janified 0'5

the gal with a ton of problems____________*