Written on Tuesday, July 19, 2005 4:26 PM
sigh.Nats are coming up and all of a sudden i feel so ...
panicky.
I was trying to tell tabi my woes yesterday when I just broke down.
I just broke down.
I couldn't help it anymore.
I am not even confident of myself now.
what if I make a mistake?
wad if?
Miss Ang would just be so mad.
I feel as if i havent raced in a super long whie and I m afraid that I may just not be able to race.
Well, wadever it is now,
I just have to believe in God.
He will watch over me and protect me and help and guide me.
Sometimes I just feel so lost.
nvm..
thanks guys for ur encouragement ya?
will try my best for u guys!
sigh.
surprise maths test just over.
as u can guess, I m writing this in notepad AGAIN.
I think i m gonna fail.
i think i only got 1 qestion right.
I NEED MATHS REMEDIAL
sigh.
i wanna die le lar.
sobs.
nothing is going right for me.
I just pray to God that I will do well for Nats.
sigh.
I really wanna make everyone proud...
So that our CCA will nt be looked down upon ever again,
but...
it's just so so so hard.
nevermind.
I will row to the best of my ability and sprint all the way.
I wanna get South cluster colours too.
ok.
will pray and meditate to God on this matter.
I promise myself to do a long enough quiet time,
so HE will be able to come touch me and talk to me.
To guide me in wad I do,
and help me.
I promise..
janified 0'5
"it's getting harder and harder to breathe"