Written on Monday, July 25, 2005 3:51 PM

---------- lonilness is wad conquers my world------------------------

Cant people just leave me alone?
i need to cry.. i really really need to cry.
When Miss Ang gave out the bookmarks, I felt like crying.
I read wad she wrote and all the memories began flooding back.
I tried so hard to forget, but everyone tries to bring the memories back.
I cant stand it anymore...
I just wanna break down.
I wanna have a shoulder to lie on to cry out all my sorrows and pain.

After the Nats, I didn't want to go back to school again,
I am really sorry for letting everyone down.
I noe I promised u guys a medal.. but I just couldn't do it.
I'm sorry..
From now on,
every training,
I m going to give my best and go all out.
I want to reach my limits and stretch them.
so that I can row faster and faster and faster and make u guys proud.
Even if my body protests,
I will just push myself.
Even if I cant take it anymore,
I promise u guys I will still push myself yea?
I dun wanna let u guys down ever again.
The feeling is just so miserable.

Sometimes, i feel so lonely...
I noe that God is always with me,
but, I feel so lonely cause I have no one to share my woes with.
i really do need someone to just sit there and be my listening ear,
someone to be there to lend me a shoulder to cry and lean on.
I'm feeling so fustrated,
that I cant vent out all that I want to and I vent it on other people.
i'm so sorry... but,
I feel so .. ARRGHHHH

so pissed off at the teachers now..
they are making us stay back to do tests..
NOT ONE BUT TWOOOOOO.
wad is their big problem huh?
WE EARNED THIS HALF DAY!
I DIDN"T LIMP AROUND IN MY COURT SHOES FOR NOTHING!
YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TAKE AWAY OUR HALF DAY!
just to do a lit test and a maths test.
cant we do it another day?
I'm begging...
i really cant take it anymore..
no canoeing is making me feel shitty.
Sigh.

oh ya..
something to laugh abt.
Just now in the train,
I was blocking Sherilyn from looking at her reflection in the glass,
And she threw her haribo( a packet of sweets) at me.
haha.
It missed and landed under the mrt seat.
haha.
I am so nice ok?
I went to get it for her.
hahas.

janified 0'5

"my troubles will never go away....."